Wednesday, June 10, 2009

4 Months

Haven't known what to write. Have 4 blogs un-published in the queue, but haven't been sure if I should publish any of them. But I have wanted to write something at least to ask for your prayers. So I figured I'd keep it short and simply say, while at 3 months I thought I was feeling better, at 4 months I miss Andrew more sharply than ever. The lonliness for him is sometimes relentless and with each week, it seems to get worse. I have cried out to God, I think, like I have never before.

Be gracious to me, O LORD, for I am in distress;
My eye is wasted away from grief, my soul and my body also.
For my life is spent with sorrow
And my years with sighing;
My strength has failed because of my iniquity,
And my body has wasted away....

As for me, I said in my alarm,
"I am cut off from before Your eyes";
Nevertheless You heard the voice of my supplications
When I cried to You.
O love the LORD, all you His godly ones!
The LORD preserves the faithful
And fully recompenses the proud doer.
Be strong and let your heart take courage,
All you who hope in the LORD.

- Psalm 31:9-10,22-24


  1. Dear Grace,
    I am thinking of you still and praying for you often.

  2. You are continually in my prayers. May the Lord's tender care for you be more evident each time your heart aches. May His sustaining grace fill you and overflow to His praise...In Christ, Elizabeth

  3. You are in my prayers Grace.

    "Grief is the purest evidence that we have loved and loved well."

  4. ....Asking the Lord to salve the mourning in your heart.

  5. I haven't stopped praying for the Lord to give you the grace and strength you need. I will pray more fervently, as I am sure others will, too.


  6. Praying for you, dear Grace. May the Lord give you the strength you need. May He remind you of His nearness to you.

    Love in Christ,

  7. Dear Grace,

    You are so often in our thoughts and prayers. My heart aches for you. The Lord is Near to the brokenhearted...He Will comfort and Sustain you. Thank you so much for posting...we continue to faithfully lift you in prayer.


  8. Hi dear Grace,
    We continue to pray for you!

    We love you very much!

    Rest under the shelter of His wings,

    Todd & Julie

  9. Grace, we don't know each other but I was reminded of your loss and just read this latest entry. I am so thankful that you were able to have such a great marriage that you miss him so much now. It's a total heartache, but I know it will be such a blessing one day for you, as I know it is for others now, to see through your blog what a great relationship you had with him. God is so good. He will not leave you alone or without support. I know I can't say that I know what you are feeling, but I know my God... and I know beynod a shadow of a doubt that HE knows what you need and will supply every piece of it. Please know we are praying for you too! Thanks for being so honest with what you write. It's so good for people, especially those that don't know the Lord, to understand that we all grieve and that we all struggle. God bless you!


  10. You're an ambassador to a mighty King, your closest ambassador friend has gone ahead of you to the place prepared for you. Oh the ache of missing him oh the joy of meeting him again face to face. I have a sticky note on I Peter with several prayer requests, Andrew's name is on that sticky note, praise the Lord that the Lord leads in reading I Peter many times, and there is the name it is not Andrew to pray for; but his lovely ambassador friend who needs much support in her travels in this world.
    God bless you, sweet Grace; we love you and pray for you.

  11. Dear Grace:

    Please post. It gives us guidance in praying for you. You must be a very rare jewel in our Lord's crown. He has entrusted you with so much pain and heartache. Keep on my lil sister. Keep on.


  12. Grace,

    You are in our prayers all the time.

    Your loving supporters in Seattle.

    Ben & Shaina Englund