Haven't known what to write. Have 4 blogs un-published in the queue, but haven't been sure if I should publish any of them. But I have wanted to write something at least to ask for your prayers. So I figured I'd keep it short and simply say, while at 3 months I thought I was feeling better, at 4 months I miss Andrew more sharply than ever. The lonliness for him is sometimes relentless and with each week, it seems to get worse. I have cried out to God, I think, like I have never before.
Be gracious to me, O LORD, for I am in distress;
My eye is wasted away from grief, my soul and my body also.
For my life is spent with sorrow
And my years with sighing;
My strength has failed because of my iniquity,
And my body has wasted away....
As for me, I said in my alarm,
"I am cut off from before Your eyes";
Nevertheless You heard the voice of my supplications
When I cried to You.
O love the LORD, all you His godly ones!
The LORD preserves the faithful
And fully recompenses the proud doer.
Be strong and let your heart take courage,
All you who hope in the LORD.
- Psalm 31:9-10,22-24